Suzy’s Strange Saga

The Future…

It’s been about a month; Johnny should be home again soon. Just have to keep an ear open for that certain knock and his voice.

You wonder what things he will have brought home this time. You’re still pretty much good with the necessities. Maybe he will have found some new movies or books to bring you this time.

At first when he started going out, you worried about him even though he assured you he would be fine. Of course as time went on, you ceased worrying altogether.

Still, after the first few years, Johnny was getting restless. Sure he was going out, but never for long periods of time.

Then one day he went out and didn’t return for a full week. For the first time in a long while you worried so much when he did that. This caused an argument when he finally returned. You were so angry.

You even accused him of cheating on you, but deep down you knew that wasn’t and would never be the case.

To Johnny’s credit he was honest about what the problem was. He apologized realizing he should’ve at least told you before disappearing like that. He tried, he really tried and he thought that “you” would be enough, but he wasn’t like you. He couldn’t stay cooped up down in a shelter for long stretches of time. Even though he was in the presence of an “angel” he always felt like a trapped animal. Sometimes being around you made him feel and realize just how inferior he was to you.

He explained how the surface was better than he could’ve ever imagined. No law, no order, and freedom to do whatever he wanted to whomever he wanted. The pull was too great and was getting greater.

You were upset and rightfully so. After all he had professed that he would always be there for you, and now who would take care of you if he left?

Johnny however insisted that he wasn’t going to break your heart. He assured you once again that he would still be there to take care of you; he just needed time to himself. He explained that he just needed to “wander” because deep down that’s who he’d always be. He also explained it would be safer for you if he did wander as he didn’t want to one day unleash his…urges out on you by accident.

What could you do? How could you compete? He was a slave to his nature. It was like Bobby all over again.

That first time, you practically kicked him out and he left without struggle or even raising his voice, he just told you that he would keep his promise and that you would see that he would not fail you.

Naturally you didn’t believe him at the time you were too upset. That entire month was a pretty bad one for you. You spent most of your time crying and wondering if you’d been a delusional fool for sticking your head in the sand and ignoring reality as usual. You even started reading those survival books that you hadn’t actually gotten to reading yet and rationing your food and water a little more since you were potentially facing an uncertain future.

But then when that month had passed and Johnny did indeed return like he always had in the past.

At first you were reluctant to even let him back in, but then you realized that he had kept his promise just like he always has to you. The reunion was a happy one and over the years you’ve gotten accustomed to this arrangement. In fact it’s nice to be by yourself too. You’d actually forgotten what that was like during the years Johnny was around all the time.

You hear a familiar pattern knock on the shelter door followed by Johnny’s faint voice coming from the other side. After taking the usual safety precautions, you excitedly rush to open it with your pistol drawn.

“I’m home, my perfect angel.” Johnny says smiling and holding a couple of bags no doubt stuffed with goodies.
“Well don’t just stand there, come in! I missed you.” You say and welcome Johnny back home like you always do.

Johnny tells you a few things about the outside world like he always does, but in general you never care that much. As far as you’re concerned, what he does out there you don’t want to hear too much about and it doesn’t matter anyway. All that matters is his time with you.

You happily accept all the gifts and supplies he has brought for you and later on you and he embrace as lovers do.

The pair of you enjoy your time together, until its time for Johnny to wander again. But you never despair about it, because you know he’ll always come back.

And one day, you know he’ll come back forever.

It’s not perfect, but then nothing in this new world is.