Eternal
Year 24
Lulls in between battles usually make you feel antsy, but over time you’ve been attempting to be more social to make the down time less intolerable. You’ve mostly confined your socialization to Major Krozer at first because you felt you should still maintain a respectable distance from the rank and file troops and the Major is the closest to your own status. Eventually though you just started to enjoy speaking with her.
It seems like you’re always learning a few new things from her too, like how she comes from a military family and how most of them have died in someway serving the Empire. She says she fully expects to meet her end the same way. Right now she’s telling you a bit about one of your old classmates that served under her during her command at Fort Destiny. Kane, nowadays known as the Butcher of Rask.
“Yeah, he was a strange fellow kept mostly to himself, focused on battle a lot. Good soldier in general, but I think he scared everyone else even back then.”
“I guess when you met me you thought it was Kane all over again.”
“Hah, well maybe a little, but even during that first year I felt a difference between the pair of you. I always felt your distant personality was more due to a strong sense of professionalism and duty. With Kane…I dunno I felt there was something else going on with him. After he took down the Wendigo tribe it seemed like he got even weirder. I’d get reports from other soldiers that he was doing creepy stuff like shouting like a madman at the dead bodies of his enemies and continuing to taunt them even in death. Taking body part trophies and such. Still, he did his job so as long as his focus was on that, I didn’t think too much of his oddities. I was sort of glad when they decided to transfer me out of Rask though I pity those that are under Kane’s command after I left. But I guess you can’t argue with his success there. I hear even the giant and ogre populations further north are under control.”
“Mm, Kane always was one of the better combatants I had to go against during my training days. He’d never quit either. Once I had to break both of his arms and legs just to get him to stop attacking me long after I’d defeated the rest of the class. Even then he was still trying to bite me.” You reply.
“Sheesh. I know you’ve briefly mentioned your training before, but what exactly did they do to you guys? You Eternals I mean. Did they just put your through hell and see who survived?”
“I suppose you could say that, though I was a special case. Due to my defiance on the first day of class, the instructor had decided to take a particular interest in giving me the hardest battles, tasks, and punishments. Not much more to say about any of it really, except I survived.”
“That’s it? No more thoughts on it?”
“Oh I have thoughts, but I’m not sure if I should share them with you Major.”
“Oh come on, how long have we known each other now? You don’t need to address me as formal all the time, especially if there aren’t other soldiers around. You can call me Alison.”
“Ha ha…alright. Alison. But my point still stands, I’m not sure if I should share such thoughts with you. Not because I would keep tight-lipped from you, because I would gladly share such private thoughts with you because I find you worthy to discuss such things with. I just wonder if it would make you see me in a different light and possibly alter our friendly relationship.”
“Wait. Let me get this straight, you’re actually concerned about what I think about you?”
“Of course. Why wouldn’t I?”
“Its just surprising given from what I do know of you, but I’m more interested in what it is that you could possibly tell me that might make me think differently about you. I mean I’ve seen what you’re capable of in battle. Anything that you did tell me, would most likely cause me to understand you a bit more rather than recoil in horror from you or whatever it is you’re worried about.”
“Very well I shall tell you of my experiences during my training as an Eternal.”
You proceed to tell Alison everything you went through and how you felt during all of it. The first part really isn’t what you are concerned about. You figure Alison can certainly understand your feelings that you experienced during the first part of your training. It’s the last part…specifically the last fight you had with Mistress. You talk about how you first felt like you were going to die, then the thrill when you finally got the upper hand. How you felt a pure hate during the whole thing until Mistress pulled her little seduction trick that caused you to become distracted.
Except it wasn’t really a trick because you DID desire her. After all her abuse, you couldn’t help but admire Mistress. She had been the one that ultimately taught you how to fight, taught you how to kill, taught you how to perform magic and taught you how to survive against all odds.
“And to this day, as much as I hate everything about that black hearted svelk bitch, there’s a sick twisted part of me that still wants her. I don’t know why. Its like she managed to get into my head permanently and I don’t know how to get rid of it.”
Alison seems slightly at a loss to respond at first, but eventually finds some words.
“Do you think its some sort of magic? Maybe she cast a spell on you or something.”
“No, it’s not magic. I mean she is half responsible for this, but it’s not any sort of witchery and when it all comes down to it, it’s all on me. I need to be stronger to eliminate the desire for her from my mind and so far I have failed in that task. It’s not all the time of course. When I’m in battle or preparing for battle its better, I become focused on that instead. When I’m not…well its more difficult.”
“What about when you’re talking with the Emperor? Surely being within his presence would keep your mind off this ”
“Well, that would be another case where she’s not usually in my mind, however it’s sometimes difficult when she’s at the meetings. Impossible actually. I loathe such days when she has to be there.”
“I can imagine, but while your story is certainly unusual and probably a little…well fucked up. It hardly changes my opinion about you. It actually explains a few things. A lot of things really.”
“Well I am glad that this revelation has not altered our relationship then.” You reply. “I must admit, I have not told this to anyone else. Not even the Emperor, though he is aware of what transpired. But I couldn’t have him knowing about this weakness. He could believe it to interfere with my abilities and take me off of important missions.”
Alison reaches out and touches your hand.
“My dear, from what I can tell the only thing your encounter with your instructor has interfered with is your ability to seek out others on an intimate level. Tell me, since that time have you EVER experienced something like that with anyone else?”
“…no.” you say.
“Far too long.” Alison says and moves in to kiss you.
At first you want to resist due to your overly developed sense of protocol and duty. Another part of you wants to resist because you remember how you behaved last time, it was rough, raw and unrestrained. While Mistress seemed to enjoy that, you don’t know if Alison is going to, and you aren’t sure if you’re going to be able to contain your overzealous nature when things start to get going.
“Major, I’m, really not sure if this is a good idea. I might start getting rough and I don’t know if I’ll be able to stop.” You say.
“While I appreciate your concern, I’m a big girl and can handle myself. And I told you call me Alison.” Alison says and at last you feel her lips connect with yours.
Your experience with Alison is different. The main difference of course you aren’t in the middle of trying to kill her. At one point you do start to get a little overly vigorous though Alison doesn’t seem to mind some of it, and when its too much she lets you know. The fact that you are able to “rein” yourself in shows that you might’ve been worrying over nothing all this time.
Or maybe it shows you might have deeper feelings for Alison than you realized. Something between the pair of you has been building for quite sometime. Granted she has been more of the pursuer in the situation, but if your thoughts hadn’t been pre-occupied with other things, maybe you would’ve pursued something with her a long time ago.
After it’s over you feel a little odd, but in a good way and it’s not just from the sex. You do sort of wonder where that puts you and Alison now though so you ask her.
“You didn’t fall in love did you?” Alison asks with a slight smile.
“Um, no. I mean I don’t think so. Not to say it wasn’t good, because it was! I just… well this isn’t exactly my area of expertise.”
“Ha ha, well I wouldn’t say that as far as the physical aspect is concerned. But I would guess that this sort of situation would be pretty new to you. Well, I’ll tell you like I’ve told others in the past. I have no claim on you, just like you have no claim on me. I can keep our professional relationship separate if you can, but if you think this might affect us in other ways, then I’m perfectly willingly to accept this as a one-time thing. Of course I’d be lying if I wouldn’t want to do this with you again sometime.”
“I’d like that too. I mean now I understand a little more of why others seem to engage in this whenever possible.”
Alison laughs at your remark, but seems happy that you are once again willing to not be so bound to duty all the time.
Lulls in between battles usually make you feel antsy, but over time you’ve been attempting to be more social to make the down time less intolerable. You’ve mostly confined your socialization to Major Krozer at first because you felt you should still maintain a respectable distance from the rank and file troops and the Major is the closest to your own status. Eventually though you just started to enjoy speaking with her.
It seems like you’re always learning a few new things from her too, like how she comes from a military family and how most of them have died in someway serving the Empire. She says she fully expects to meet her end the same way. Right now she’s telling you a bit about one of your old classmates that served under her during her command at Fort Destiny. Kane, nowadays known as the Butcher of Rask.
“Yeah, he was a strange fellow kept mostly to himself, focused on battle a lot. Good soldier in general, but I think he scared everyone else even back then.”
“I guess when you met me you thought it was Kane all over again.”
“Hah, well maybe a little, but even during that first year I felt a difference between the pair of you. I always felt your distant personality was more due to a strong sense of professionalism and duty. With Kane…I dunno I felt there was something else going on with him. After he took down the Wendigo tribe it seemed like he got even weirder. I’d get reports from other soldiers that he was doing creepy stuff like shouting like a madman at the dead bodies of his enemies and continuing to taunt them even in death. Taking body part trophies and such. Still, he did his job so as long as his focus was on that, I didn’t think too much of his oddities. I was sort of glad when they decided to transfer me out of Rask though I pity those that are under Kane’s command after I left. But I guess you can’t argue with his success there. I hear even the giant and ogre populations further north are under control.”
“Mm, Kane always was one of the better combatants I had to go against during my training days. He’d never quit either. Once I had to break both of his arms and legs just to get him to stop attacking me long after I’d defeated the rest of the class. Even then he was still trying to bite me.” You reply.
“Sheesh. I know you’ve briefly mentioned your training before, but what exactly did they do to you guys? You Eternals I mean. Did they just put your through hell and see who survived?”
“I suppose you could say that, though I was a special case. Due to my defiance on the first day of class, the instructor had decided to take a particular interest in giving me the hardest battles, tasks, and punishments. Not much more to say about any of it really, except I survived.”
“That’s it? No more thoughts on it?”
“Oh I have thoughts, but I’m not sure if I should share them with you Major.”
“Oh come on, how long have we known each other now? You don’t need to address me as formal all the time, especially if there aren’t other soldiers around. You can call me Alison.”
“Ha ha…alright. Alison. But my point still stands, I’m not sure if I should share such thoughts with you. Not because I would keep tight-lipped from you, because I would gladly share such private thoughts with you because I find you worthy to discuss such things with. I just wonder if it would make you see me in a different light and possibly alter our friendly relationship.”
“Wait. Let me get this straight, you’re actually concerned about what I think about you?”
“Of course. Why wouldn’t I?”
“Its just surprising given from what I do know of you, but I’m more interested in what it is that you could possibly tell me that might make me think differently about you. I mean I’ve seen what you’re capable of in battle. Anything that you did tell me, would most likely cause me to understand you a bit more rather than recoil in horror from you or whatever it is you’re worried about.”
“Very well I shall tell you of my experiences during my training as an Eternal.”
You proceed to tell Alison everything you went through and how you felt during all of it. The first part really isn’t what you are concerned about. You figure Alison can certainly understand your feelings that you experienced during the first part of your training. It’s the last part…specifically the last fight you had with Mistress. You talk about how you first felt like you were going to die, then the thrill when you finally got the upper hand. How you felt a pure hate during the whole thing until Mistress pulled her little seduction trick that caused you to become distracted.
Except it wasn’t really a trick because you DID desire her. After all her abuse, you couldn’t help but admire Mistress. She had been the one that ultimately taught you how to fight, taught you how to kill, taught you how to perform magic and taught you how to survive against all odds.
“And to this day, as much as I hate everything about that black hearted svelk bitch, there’s a sick twisted part of me that still wants her. I don’t know why. Its like she managed to get into my head permanently and I don’t know how to get rid of it.”
Alison seems slightly at a loss to respond at first, but eventually finds some words.
“Do you think its some sort of magic? Maybe she cast a spell on you or something.”
“No, it’s not magic. I mean she is half responsible for this, but it’s not any sort of witchery and when it all comes down to it, it’s all on me. I need to be stronger to eliminate the desire for her from my mind and so far I have failed in that task. It’s not all the time of course. When I’m in battle or preparing for battle its better, I become focused on that instead. When I’m not…well its more difficult.”
“What about when you’re talking with the Emperor? Surely being within his presence would keep your mind off this ”
“Well, that would be another case where she’s not usually in my mind, however it’s sometimes difficult when she’s at the meetings. Impossible actually. I loathe such days when she has to be there.”
“I can imagine, but while your story is certainly unusual and probably a little…well fucked up. It hardly changes my opinion about you. It actually explains a few things. A lot of things really.”
“Well I am glad that this revelation has not altered our relationship then.” You reply. “I must admit, I have not told this to anyone else. Not even the Emperor, though he is aware of what transpired. But I couldn’t have him knowing about this weakness. He could believe it to interfere with my abilities and take me off of important missions.”
Alison reaches out and touches your hand.
“My dear, from what I can tell the only thing your encounter with your instructor has interfered with is your ability to seek out others on an intimate level. Tell me, since that time have you EVER experienced something like that with anyone else?”
“…no.” you say.
“Far too long.” Alison says and moves in to kiss you.
At first you want to resist due to your overly developed sense of protocol and duty. Another part of you wants to resist because you remember how you behaved last time, it was rough, raw and unrestrained. While Mistress seemed to enjoy that, you don’t know if Alison is going to, and you aren’t sure if you’re going to be able to contain your overzealous nature when things start to get going.
“Major, I’m, really not sure if this is a good idea. I might start getting rough and I don’t know if I’ll be able to stop.” You say.
“While I appreciate your concern, I’m a big girl and can handle myself. And I told you call me Alison.” Alison says and at last you feel her lips connect with yours.
Your experience with Alison is different. The main difference of course you aren’t in the middle of trying to kill her. At one point you do start to get a little overly vigorous though Alison doesn’t seem to mind some of it, and when its too much she lets you know. The fact that you are able to “rein” yourself in shows that you might’ve been worrying over nothing all this time.
Or maybe it shows you might have deeper feelings for Alison than you realized. Something between the pair of you has been building for quite sometime. Granted she has been more of the pursuer in the situation, but if your thoughts hadn’t been pre-occupied with other things, maybe you would’ve pursued something with her a long time ago.
After it’s over you feel a little odd, but in a good way and it’s not just from the sex. You do sort of wonder where that puts you and Alison now though so you ask her.
“You didn’t fall in love did you?” Alison asks with a slight smile.
“Um, no. I mean I don’t think so. Not to say it wasn’t good, because it was! I just… well this isn’t exactly my area of expertise.”
“Ha ha, well I wouldn’t say that as far as the physical aspect is concerned. But I would guess that this sort of situation would be pretty new to you. Well, I’ll tell you like I’ve told others in the past. I have no claim on you, just like you have no claim on me. I can keep our professional relationship separate if you can, but if you think this might affect us in other ways, then I’m perfectly willingly to accept this as a one-time thing. Of course I’d be lying if I wouldn’t want to do this with you again sometime.”
“I’d like that too. I mean now I understand a little more of why others seem to engage in this whenever possible.”
Alison laughs at your remark, but seems happy that you are once again willing to not be so bound to duty all the time.