Hall of Infinite Doors
Whatever happened - whatever's GOING to happen - you can't help but view the new, developing thing inside yourself as a baby. Your baby. In the morning, as you lay on the bed naked with your hands clasped over your stomach, you can't help but feel a bit of wonder at the tiny little person developping just a few inches below your touch. No matter what this baby does to your life, for better or for worse, you just can't bring yourself to deny it its chance at living. In the future, you can be more careful, but for now, you'll just have to deal with what you've done.
In the morning, you sit down with your parents before your father goes off to work, and talk to them about your decision. You were all sorts of worried before the discussion - how will they react? what will they think of me? will mom still think I'm a slut? will dad still refuse to support my baby? - but it goes better than you imagined. Your mother is intensely relieved to hear about your decision. She's disappointed in what she perceives as your lack of restraint, but happy to hear that you've decided to go through with having the baby at least. Your father is pretty much as you imagined he would be - concerned over all. With mom as a mitigating factor, he's a lot less frantic than he was when you first broke the news, but he's still more worried than anything about how you plan on supporting and dealing with your child once you have it.
To be honest, that worries you too. You're an actor - an aspiring actor, you woefully remind yourself - and don't have anything near a steady paycheque. You're still in school, and unsure about whether you want to compromise that. You know you can't expect your parents to pick up all your expenses, but you don't want to give up your future - your youth - just for this.
Your father brings up the subject of adoption. If you're going to have the child, he explains, it might be better for both it and you, in the long run, if you give it up to a family that's better able to care for it. Your mother is ambivalent - she was, quite frankly, looking forward to another baby around the house, but for now is just happy that you've decided to have it in the first place.
Of course, you don't have to decide now. Deep down, you just want to keep it a secret, keep on like normal, and hope this will somehow resolve itself for the best.
In the morning, you sit down with your parents before your father goes off to work, and talk to them about your decision. You were all sorts of worried before the discussion - how will they react? what will they think of me? will mom still think I'm a slut? will dad still refuse to support my baby? - but it goes better than you imagined. Your mother is intensely relieved to hear about your decision. She's disappointed in what she perceives as your lack of restraint, but happy to hear that you've decided to go through with having the baby at least. Your father is pretty much as you imagined he would be - concerned over all. With mom as a mitigating factor, he's a lot less frantic than he was when you first broke the news, but he's still more worried than anything about how you plan on supporting and dealing with your child once you have it.
To be honest, that worries you too. You're an actor - an aspiring actor, you woefully remind yourself - and don't have anything near a steady paycheque. You're still in school, and unsure about whether you want to compromise that. You know you can't expect your parents to pick up all your expenses, but you don't want to give up your future - your youth - just for this.
Your father brings up the subject of adoption. If you're going to have the child, he explains, it might be better for both it and you, in the long run, if you give it up to a family that's better able to care for it. Your mother is ambivalent - she was, quite frankly, looking forward to another baby around the house, but for now is just happy that you've decided to have it in the first place.
Of course, you don't have to decide now. Deep down, you just want to keep it a secret, keep on like normal, and hope this will somehow resolve itself for the best.