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Today has been hard on you. It's been difficult not to kick yourself for staying home. You're glad you mustered up the will to make real food and consume it but your brain still does not want to focus. You glance up from your laptop for a moment and notice that your pencil holder is amiss. There are pens in the marker compartment and pencils in the pens and sharpies in the pencils and ?? ?? ???. It is bothering you very much. You look back down. ???? ?? ??????. ??'? ???? ???????. ??????, ?????, ???? ??? ???? ??. You open up the word document with your paper in it and try to focus again. Your phone buzzes. ????, you think, ? ?????? ?? ??? ???? ???? ?????????. You pick it up to see what's on the screen. It's a pointless Twitter notification that you could not care any less about but the damage is done. Another disruption. You toss your phone onto the couch behind you after putting it on Do Not Disturb and try to get back to work again. You're having a hard time. You pull out the assignment sheet and look it over while thinking about texting your friend to ask what they wrote their paper on but remember that your phone is currently indisposed. The little clock you bought is ticking louder than normal. You bought it because you found the sound soothing when you were a kid but now it haunts you very determinedly. ????. ????. ????. ????.
You get up and move to the kitchen table. The amount of effort you're having to exert to keep your brain focused is already wearing on you and making you feel upset and at a loss for how you're supposed to do all this work. ??? ??? ? ???? ???? ???????? ???? ??? ??? ? ????? ?????? ???? ??????? ?? ???? ?? ??? ?? ??? ? ???? ?????
??'? ????, you say soothingly to yourself, ??'?? ?? ????. ???'? ????? ??? ????? ???????. You had a good meal and took a shower and gave yourself some time at home to rest that you didn't need to allow yourself. You've been fighting the urge to put yourself down all day. You can do this.
You start to focus. The keys on your laptop clack satisfyingly and you begin getting some work done. You finish the two pages you had to write and skimmed the scientific journal before completely bullshitting an insanely unnecessary 1000s words about it. Your stomach reaches up and lightly taps your shoulder but the decent meal you had earlier was good sustenance and you are able to ignore your stomach. You take a little break anyway for some water and reward yourself for the hard work with a quick scroll through twitter. You feel tired but you still have plenty of work left.
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Today has been hard on you. It's been difficult not to kick yourself for staying home. You're glad you mustered up the will to make real food and consume it but your brain still does not want to focus. You glance up from your laptop for a moment and notice that your pencil holder is amiss. There are pens in the marker compartment and pencils in the pens and sharpies in the pencils and ?? ?? ???. It is bothering you very much. You look back down. ???? ?? ??????. ??'? ???? ???????. ??????, ?????, ???? ??? ???? ??. You open up the word document with your paper in it and try to focus again. Your phone buzzes. ????, you think, ? ?????? ?? ??? ???? ???? ?????????. You pick it up to see what's on the screen. It's a pointless Twitter notification that you could not care any less about but the damage is done. Another disruption. You toss your phone onto the couch behind you after putting it on Do Not Disturb and try to get back to work again. You're having a hard time. You pull out the assignment sheet and look it over while thinking about texting your friend to ask what they wrote their paper on but remember that your phone is currently indisposed. The little clock you bought is ticking louder than normal. You bought it because you found the sound soothing when you were a kid but now it haunts you very determinedly. ????. ????. ????. ????.
You get up and move to the kitchen table. The amount of effort you're having to exert to keep your brain focused is already wearing on you and making you feel upset and at a loss for how you're supposed to do all this work. ??? ??? ? ???? ???? ???????? ???? ??? ??? ? ????? ?????? ???? ??????? ?? ???? ?? ??? ?? ??? ? ???? ?????
??'? ????, you say soothingly to yourself, ??'?? ?? ????. ???'? ????? ??? ????? ???????. You had a good meal and took a shower and gave yourself some time at home to rest that you didn't need to allow yourself. You've been fighting the urge to put yourself down all day. You can do this.
You start to focus. The keys on your laptop clack satisfyingly and you begin getting some work done. You finish the two pages you had to write and skimmed the scientific journal before completely bullshitting an insanely unnecessary 1000s words about it. Your stomach reaches up and lightly taps your shoulder but the decent meal you had earlier was good sustenance and you are able to ignore your stomach. You take a little break anyway for some water and reward yourself for the hard work with a quick scroll through twitter. You feel tired but you still have plenty of work left.