Tantamount
There is no use in trying; you don't really understand the magnitude of what you are looking at. Somehow it never dawns on you that this is part of some kind of test, and that you are supposed to actively observe what these men are doing. However, you also seem to have no reason to do so, since you wouldn't implement it into your life regardless. You have no "life" in any functional capacity, since you have no identity and no purpose that you can discern.
There is no waking up from this... it will continue endlessly. You realize that you are probably stuck in a time loop, since you remember no beginning. As you try to reach back into your memory to find the first moment, you end up realizing that there is no first moment, but that you are stuck doing the same things over and over again, asking the same questions, and though you think that you have just begun to exist, in point of fact there is no "beginning" that doesn't loop back to some prior choice that you already made.
There is no waking up from this... it will continue endlessly. You realize that you are probably stuck in a time loop, since you remember no beginning. As you try to reach back into your memory to find the first moment, you end up realizing that there is no first moment, but that you are stuck doing the same things over and over again, asking the same questions, and though you think that you have just begun to exist, in point of fact there is no "beginning" that doesn't loop back to some prior choice that you already made.