Repression
You wait patiently because you were told to do so. Something about realizing that makes you a lot calmer.
Your sister returns with "body disposing" items. She says you could either chop her up in the bathtub and then dispose of her in garbage bags or just wait until night and bury her in the backyard.
It almost looks as if your sister had thought about doing it herself at one time. You hadn't even planned it out that far. You tell your sister whatever she thinks is best, but you'll carry it out whatever she decides.
After she makes her decision, you go about performing the duty casually. Its almost as if you feel like yourself again. Later your sister makes up an elaborate story about your Mom's disappearance, you back her up without any problems and it is believed.
Life continues as normal for the both of you, sis feels complete freedom to do what she wants and you take care of the more mundane matters that she tells you to do when she doesn't feel like bothering to do them (Which is all the time)
You now know why you felt fear and panic after you killed your Mom. It was because after so many years of being told what to do you'd destroyed your shackles. Freedom can be frightening and you realized it wasn't for you. Thank god sis has taken over Mom's role now. Its not exactly the same, but its calmer and secure.
Another day arrives and you feel safe...
Your sister returns with "body disposing" items. She says you could either chop her up in the bathtub and then dispose of her in garbage bags or just wait until night and bury her in the backyard.
It almost looks as if your sister had thought about doing it herself at one time. You hadn't even planned it out that far. You tell your sister whatever she thinks is best, but you'll carry it out whatever she decides.
After she makes her decision, you go about performing the duty casually. Its almost as if you feel like yourself again. Later your sister makes up an elaborate story about your Mom's disappearance, you back her up without any problems and it is believed.
Life continues as normal for the both of you, sis feels complete freedom to do what she wants and you take care of the more mundane matters that she tells you to do when she doesn't feel like bothering to do them (Which is all the time)
You now know why you felt fear and panic after you killed your Mom. It was because after so many years of being told what to do you'd destroyed your shackles. Freedom can be frightening and you realized it wasn't for you. Thank god sis has taken over Mom's role now. Its not exactly the same, but its calmer and secure.
Another day arrives and you feel safe...
