Snowfall
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It is 8 pm now. It will take you a few hours yet to finish. You will have to go to bed late tonight.
Luck strikes and you are able to focus for another two hours. You get the rest of your writing done but when you start your reading you only get five pages in before having to give up. You're honestly just happy you were able to get anything done at all. This much work rarely gets done in one night recently. Things have been hard as the semester goes on and you can only handle so much of the same kinds of disappointment and the same kinds of frustration every day.
It is 10 pm now and you feel exhausted. Some nights you are up past midnight trying to finish everything so even though you still have some reading left, you're just glad to be done. If you had time, you would pat yourself on the back with a nice bath or a movie or maybe even a sweet you are sure you have hidden away somewhere.
You give yourself an hour to watch something on TV before getting ready for bed. You try to do this every night because it helps you calm down and get to bed with a little less fuss. Your clock ticks at you again but you ignore it for now. You have done you're tithing today and don't need to suffer over the feeling of losing time anymore. Brushing your teeth, you realize you haven't done any of the housework today. The dishes have been sitting for so long you are starting to get a few fruit flies. The garbage is overflowing too and you have been lightly setting everything on top of the can, balancing it and walking away. You are already so tired. You finish brushing and put on your pajamas. It is time to go to bed.
You have some trouble falling asleep but know better than to take Melatonin. It doesn't work for you most of the time but the next morning you always find yourself sleeping through your alarm or shambling about like you're barely alive. This is just another obstacle you face every day, a nightly ritual, trying to fall asleep. You decide to take out your phone. You found an hour-long video of your favorite show posted on YouTube and you turn that on. It is in a playlist by itself that you use often because you have trouble getting to bed nearly every night. Having the video lull you to sleep is comforting. It makes you feel less alone and distracts your overactive brain. Without the background noise, you often catch yourself peering around the room suspiciously, your heart beating loud and concerned. Any noise makes you jump, tremors running up your spine and down your arms. You adjust the volume on your phone so the show is a low droning by your head. You tuck our feet into the folds of your big comforter and nestle your head into the creases of your pillow. ???? ???????.
After a while, you drift into a hopeful sleep.
It is 8 pm now. It will take you a few hours yet to finish. You will have to go to bed late tonight.
Luck strikes and you are able to focus for another two hours. You get the rest of your writing done but when you start your reading you only get five pages in before having to give up. You're honestly just happy you were able to get anything done at all. This much work rarely gets done in one night recently. Things have been hard as the semester goes on and you can only handle so much of the same kinds of disappointment and the same kinds of frustration every day.
It is 10 pm now and you feel exhausted. Some nights you are up past midnight trying to finish everything so even though you still have some reading left, you're just glad to be done. If you had time, you would pat yourself on the back with a nice bath or a movie or maybe even a sweet you are sure you have hidden away somewhere.
You give yourself an hour to watch something on TV before getting ready for bed. You try to do this every night because it helps you calm down and get to bed with a little less fuss. Your clock ticks at you again but you ignore it for now. You have done you're tithing today and don't need to suffer over the feeling of losing time anymore. Brushing your teeth, you realize you haven't done any of the housework today. The dishes have been sitting for so long you are starting to get a few fruit flies. The garbage is overflowing too and you have been lightly setting everything on top of the can, balancing it and walking away. You are already so tired. You finish brushing and put on your pajamas. It is time to go to bed.
You have some trouble falling asleep but know better than to take Melatonin. It doesn't work for you most of the time but the next morning you always find yourself sleeping through your alarm or shambling about like you're barely alive. This is just another obstacle you face every day, a nightly ritual, trying to fall asleep. You decide to take out your phone. You found an hour-long video of your favorite show posted on YouTube and you turn that on. It is in a playlist by itself that you use often because you have trouble getting to bed nearly every night. Having the video lull you to sleep is comforting. It makes you feel less alone and distracts your overactive brain. Without the background noise, you often catch yourself peering around the room suspiciously, your heart beating loud and concerned. Any noise makes you jump, tremors running up your spine and down your arms. You adjust the volume on your phone so the show is a low droning by your head. You tuck our feet into the folds of your big comforter and nestle your head into the creases of your pillow. ???? ???????.
After a while, you drift into a hopeful sleep.
