Painkilling: Desire

I want to end this.
I just want to run..
I just want to run away..
I begin to run through the trees.
I don't look where I'm going. I fall into a lake.

I start flailing.
Mother didn't teach me how to swim.
My mother wasn't even there.
The lake starts rising.
She's never there.
It rises to my mouth as my body shakes rapidly, head trembling and vibrating.
My mouth fills with water as I begin choking.
I cannot choke. If I could, someone may have come for me.
Something grabs my leg.

I struggle, flailing at the surface with tears in my eyes.
The lake rises even more.
The lake starts pushing me downwards.
What is grabbing my leg is around my body, breathing into my ear.
He whispers three words before I reach the bottom.
"Rehtegot eid ew."

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